Another Year Older, Another Year
Well it’s that time of year again. A day that sometimes I would rather forget than celebrate. It seems to come around awfully fast each year.
Why is that?
I remember as a kid you used to wait all year until your birthday. It seemed to take FOREVER to get here, just like Christmas and you used to count down the days with avid anticipation.
These days it seems like I am celebrating my birthday at least twice a year instead of once.
So much so that one year I actually went through a whole year thinking I was a year younger than I actually was. When this slip up was brought to my attention on my birthday, instead of only adding one year to my age, I found myself adding two!! What a downer that year was!
And what is with that saying, “another year older, another year wiser”?…
I definitely don’t feel wiser. In fact sometimes it feels like it takes twice as long for my brain to kick in each morning compared to what it used to.
My youngest started school last year, and as a result I have spent the better part of this year trying to decide what to do with my life.
As Mr Barbie so eloquently put it last night “You need to get out more, find a life for yourself, outside of us”..
I initially was kind of perturbed at this comment, after all I have a life!!…Don’t I?……Now I’m not so sure…
Then I really thought about what he said and also after he explained himself a bit better…
He meant now is the time to start thinking about myself for a change. All the girls are at school, the oldest in her final year.
They are all starting to forge independent lives for themselves and becoming more self sufficient. The reality is they just don’t need me in the same way they used to. Don’t get me wrong, I hope they will always need me to a certain extent, but those needs change over time.
I can either choose to mourn that that stage of my life is coming to a close, or I can embrace it and enjoy my new found freedom…I am going to choose the later..
This is also going to be the year that I focus on my own fitness and wellbeing. This is something I have really let slide over the years. I have wrapped myself up so much in the lives of my girls that I have neglected my own needs….no more….
School starts tomorrow and therefore this makes it the perfect time to start a new year for myself too. I’m going to drop them at school and go for a nice long walk and just contemplate life.
I love this blog, so maybe it is time to seriously put this out there a bit more and just see where it can take me.
Sometimes we wrap ourselves up so much in our families that we lose our own identities.
It is time.. Along with being someone’s Mum and someone’s wife, it also time to remember that I am SOMEONE in my own right.
So the rain that has welcomed in my 43rd Birthday (arrrggghhh, that took effort to write down) is also washing away the negativity in my life and wiping the slate clean, ready for me start over.
For once the sun comes out and everything is bright, I know that this year will contain amazing things, not just for the members of my family, but for once ME also.
Happy Birthday to me and I know I have just given myself the best present ever! On second thought maybe I am becoming older and wiser…. and that’s OK.